Friday, April 21, 2017

Monday will be 4 years since the last post

My life has really changed.
Monday April 24, 2017 will be 4 years since my last post on this blog and WOW WOW WOW WOW
Not sure what I was thinking when I started this blog beyond connecting to anyone during that dark time in my life. depression Isolation verbal emotional abuse is an interesting roller coaster to say the least.

I am now free of all that yet still dealing with it on a weekly basis because there are other people involved that connect us.
Maneuvering through the court system is like walking in sludge, slow going and painfully filled with after the fact learning that happens.

Anyway I am not dead and will be looking to making this blog or my other or ever a brand new blog a money making side hustle so to speak.

Have a Great Gratitude Filled Day.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

NOW is The Time for a Complete 180 in my Life

It is almost a year since my last blog post.
My family and I are now home on the West Coast and it is time to LIVE LIFE.
There is no longer time for existing, HAPPINESS IS IN LIVING!

Honestly I was stuck in a pity party of replaying my life and all the choices and handling the fear of others as my own and seeing how it was and is holding me back from my happiness.

I have dreams too, outside of being a mom/wife and all that entails.
I allowed myself to get lost along the way of my life and now after kicking my self and hating myself and struggling with wanting to move forward but allowing myself to be held back and blaming others for stopping me, sabotaging me with their fear as well as my doubt stopped me cold every time.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..............banging my head against the wall.
I know I'm not the only one who stays home to parent and raise the children that this happens to.
I have a good life, I know I do. Im not going to complain.

I'm changing my personal happiness with a complete turn around a full 180 of everything I have ever known and done.

Finances - Reading, learning and getting knowledge to correct the errors that have been           

                   made that has not befitted me and my family in any way.
                   Making money in more than one way, more than one outlet.

Relationships - reading learning and changing the choices in the quality of them and how to 

                    improve the ones I am in and want to keep.

Happiness - Doing daily something that makes me personally happy, and if you know me at 

                    all that is Crocheting for
                    My heart sings with hook in hand.

How are you going to improve your Happiness?

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Keep your word to your self first

My last entry was a P90x redo into my b day tattoo flop
I  have not kept my commitment to my self ...I suck
If you cant keep your own word to yourself then what value are you to your family and friends and how in the hell can you keep your word to them.....

I have a long time friend that is having health issues with high BP and sleep apnea and leg back pain among other things and the meds and the needed weight loss.
its like we reached out at the same time and now being across the country how do we keep each other accountable

You stay accountable to your self and just keep supporting the others with out the i told you so or shame or blame
you cant blame anyone but yourself

I have had a year of not doing for my self with this weight  that I keep talking about and like I bitch at my husband stop talking and start doing

I have a Pinterest board with tons of body weight workouts that I can tap into and other outlets to keep off the boredom so now today TODAY I am going to keep myself accountable and blog about it as I do it with all the self talk about why not and the do to shut it all up


as I just answered the phone and perused Facebook while I was waiting for water for coffee this just popped up and BLAM right in my face
#4,5,8,& 10 as well and various degrees of the rest all my life.

Only I can control and change how my health is and in doing so I will bring along my kids and husband because when I am feeling good they see it and the attitude and mood in my home is great

GREAT!!!!!! :)

So stay posted and see how this 200lb 5'5" person changes grows and shrinks
Yes there will be photos * embarrassed*